may God take this pain away

i don't know who to tell when you're not here.

it's like you're ready to lose me. i love you from the bottom of my heart and i always wanted to be with you from the very start. i may took this from somewhere but i truly meant it.

Md Hameezul Asyraf, what part of "you're my life" don't you understand? i love you so much. further than that

i love you. i don't care any dude who tried to flirt. if you leave me. the world will never be the same. i'll be dying, i'm hurt. i'll be crying all of my life and i never forgive myself to lose you.

Hameezul. i don't care how much i've said this. I LOVE YOU and i meant it very well. i never been unfaithful to you. i don't wanna. i wanted to be your best and i'm trying so hard to be one and you kept saying that i am but i really hope i'll be better than that. I LOVE YOU. i wanted to be with you all the time. i never wanted to lose you. please forget about what they say and think about us. what are they thinking? who the hell knows and who the hell cares. what we have now is real and i never had this feeling. I LOVE YOU WAY TOO MUCH. 

remember our first inbox. we were talking about playing numbers and about our lives. you said you had a crush on 85. my heart was smashed into a concrete wall, to a billion pieces. i didn't know you that well but i swear i loved you since then. don't ever leave me. i promise you, i'll try hard enough to be your bestest and i wanted to be your favourite hello and your lastest goodbye. i've seen this word somewhere else but i meant it. 

ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU

him is my past and you are my future. don't you leave me this way, i love you once and i'll love you forever and nothing's gonna change that. fate will decide our love, and i sure hope that it blesses us and may Allah bless our loved relationship. 

i love you md hameezul asyraf bin hj yusran/nasri.

don't leave.

may this engrossing feeling go away.

i love you truly hameezul.

as I said, I said, he's my one.

hello people. went to granddad's house. as in. Aaron's and Cody's House. ada kind of gathering. awal pagi. still sakit hati tu. i had puffy red eyes and my mum said "you look miserable. wash that off" i was like pfffffffffffffffffffffft! i'm broken hearted! what am i supposed to do? 


then at noon kami makan samasama on his restaurant. i had spaghetti but i refuse to eat it. i couldn't eat. :/


then i liat my facebook and ada Inbox (♥) i was psych and really hoping it was hameezul. and guess what. it was him! my heart pounded so fast and i could wait another second. i was so afraid to click the INBOX button, but i clicked it anyways and i found this.

i was crying my eyes out and accidentally fell of the chair. my mum was asking, "behapa kau tu? main mobile saja sampai kan tegugur. beulah kau ani." it's like i fell through a deep hole and landed on a soft pile of pillows with a strawberry scent. then i was being swept off the ground with my charming prince. well even it was a mystical dream, that is how i felt when i saw the word forgive. i love you Meezul and nothing can change that.


 who owns my heart? It's you baby.  

iloveeyouu

don't tell me it's too late to try, to make it right

worst night ever. i'm really sorry for all the mistakes i've done. i know that i'm not perfect but i really wanted to be so perfect for you. cause you're everything i ever needed and i wanted you to be my partner for life. i love you no matter what and i wanna be with you now and next year and whatever comes after that. so i'm asking, if you could honestly tell me, that you love me too.

Md. Hameezul Asyraf, i love you so much! i really do and i never wanted to lose you for a little misunderstanding. i'm not the type of who reluctantly breakdown because of this little situation but with you i felt different. i really want you for life.

to be honest, i will always love you the same way i do now. 

that textmessage wasn't supposed to be sent. it was just a little letting out feeling thing.

 i'm really sorry. i trust you, i trust you 100% and please forgive me. i will cry myself to sleep tonight

this is officially my worst night ever. i really wish i could make it right. right now. i really wish that i could run to your house, break off everything that's on my way and just hug you and tell you that i love you this much!. :'( i love you. i never wanna lose you meezul

Hameezul. You're My Best Among The Others. You're My Everything now. You're Apart of My Life. 

i'll die without you.

this is how much i love you 

live life to the fullest!

without you, i'm uncomfortable

hello everybody. tired me. ://

YEAR 8 ASPIRATION
(2010)

i have to tunggu for dad for an hour di sekulah. and guess what. urang yr 7 beulah banar. macam kanakkanak. hahaha. then ada tia my fom 5 friend. si Wafiy. He's my Ex-Teacher Punya Anak. i called him Wafiy or Hanif. It's his name. kan aku tanya, about his life lately. cakapnya getting harder everyday to his studies. then datang tia my uncle. pfffffffffffffft. step uncle lah. si Aaron. Cody's Abang. ia duduk siring ku. he's like "kenapa kau gambar my baby picture kan? memalu kan ih" hahahaha i laughed so hard.

before that. studying.

seklass kitani ani bah. alum siap corections and homework. gila eh. what a chaos. bio was easy and fun. we were divided to two groups. kami kana suruh buat somekind of building thingy pakai LEGO. hahaha. i thought the teacher was kidding but inda. duuuuh. then Maths D. payah eh. ada hwnya lagi banyak ni. but i'll try to ask durang tomorrow. so do chemist. siuk. the teacher buat ketawa saja. physics jua. hahaha. we've met with the micrometre and vinear calipers thing. entah eh. hahah now i have to rest. ENGLISH HOMEWORK LAGI. payah express ani ah. sabar

oh, p/s. there was a new student today. namanya Lau Chung Song. i tak tahu lah. it's chinese. he's damn tall pfffffffffft. jealous ku. ia macam in his twenties. i didn't get his age though. well. we all hope we can be friends with him. he's a shy one. hahah.

 bah off. 

iloveeyouu

ADD MATHS

hey guys, i didn't update last night. my dad pakai the laptop and now at cyber. aiyoo, crowded ah

so yeah, kelmarin i forgotten my biology and guess what. mati ku eh kana marahi. bahbah. i'm still a kid, no need to shout. hahah. then. aku lupa where i simpan my questions' sheet for Maths D. aiyoo, so my kawan photocopy kan. he's my neighbour tah jua. hahah. so yeah. i didn't get trouble but late for school. mum's away for a while though. pffffffft. and tonight. i can't sleep at my house just because my room kana usai. i know right, i can tidur arah my kaka. but what, no. i sleep at my cousins'. he's not that close to me. maaaaan!

today, nada papa really. just that ADD MATHS' TEACHER WAS FREAKIN' FAST. ngalih my hand to write bah. aiyoo. and physics was so siuk. kami belajar. half period then freee! sal the teacher atu ia mesti bagi speech on fom 5 students. so yeah.

that's all for now. 

PS. i miss my boyfriend. alot! seriously alot. i miss him so much and we can;t contact sementara ani. well my messaging saja. but my mobile kana check ah.my dad lah tu. pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffft. study away me.

iloveeyouu

Jon Marco Garcia

JM

i miss this anak! hahaha.

 tiuuuutnaaah. =3

iloveeyouu

he don't wanna leave.

hello stalkers. :)


so yeah, aku inda mau ikut ke sengkurung ah. my cousin nada. :/ so yeah. now just dangar lagu ah. dah kamu dangar lagu Kiss Me? Lawa right, originally by Sixpence. but durang nada lagi.


i love that pop song. hahaha. :) now just listening to war. at the same time. singing it. lawa kaliah. :)


bah off now.

iloveeyouu

so kiss me.

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
I'll wear those shoes and you will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me

Kiss Me Beneath The Milky Twilight

one thing you wished i'll forget.

goodmorning people and stalkers! so yeah. morning in brunei now it's 10:45 AM. :D i've called meezul and he was screaming. damn. -.-" other news. hmm. ex ku. BRAD

he's been textmsging me. asking if i'm free today. ofcourse aku reject! he's a jerk. i don't wanna be with him.so yeah. there's 32 messages i've deleted and it's all from brad. GET OVER IT. you broke us up. what a jerk.

so yeah, karang ke sengkurung. heheh. i miss my cousins. :) or ke batubersurat and i remembered that i have to buy school stuffs. so yeah. pffffffffffffft. :) cikgu biology siuk but garang. macam cikgu sibah. but cikgu nurul's funner. 

so karang ke sengkurung baju apa ah? purple or red or blue? purple ah? or pink? girls' outing. hahah :)

so bah. off. bytheway, meezul suruh aku update this. 50 paragraphs.pffffft. you think i'm good at writing?

iloveeyouu

let you live your life. pretend i'm okay

ilovered

malam peeeps. so today. sama jua masih yang ada heartaching news but yeah. and tadi on english kami kana suruh curhat. 0.0 hahaha

i ate my birrthday cake tadi. :D kanyaang. i miss my sayang. HAMEEZUL! so yeah, CCA kana pindahkan on saturnday. pfffffffffffffffffffffffft. -.- aiyaaa on monday, bawa baju PE. fcuk you rules of menglait. D: bah off

with my sayang. 

iloveeyouu